Another Dragon...

My new watch arrived today (picture shown in previous post). It is even better than I thought it would be. It has the dragon on one side of the watch face (as shown). To switch it to the clock the entire front lifts up, the two sided center spins around. Much to my surprise underneath all of this upturned watch face is a little mirror. I figure it is a survival watch. If I'm ever out in the wilderness, lost, I can flag down passing airliners to come to my rescue. lol. Anyway, we're considering it my father's day gift and I can't think of anything I would have rather had (except for the hand drawn picture that seb made, but I got that too).

For those reading this that know me, yes I still have all my dragons. The collection grows constantly. If you are just getting to know me, believe me when I tell you, I have everything dragon. Dragon beer, hot sauce, belt buckle, candles, pewter, ceramic, plates, stickers, watch, lol.. so many dragons... Olivia's Tattoo I and Tattoo II (signed & numbered lithos).. I have a Jeff Easley (well known for his dragon art in AD&D books). One of these days I'll get around to posting some pictures of my dragons knick knacks.

Sebastian woke up feeling ill this morning. He was very hot to the touch and felt nauscious (sp). Poor guy. He was feeling better after some medicine and a couple hours laying around watching TV. He was talking about wanting to try out baseball, so I'm now looking for a T-ball league for him this summer or fall. I know when I was younger, sports really helped me learn to focus and deal with my own ADHD issues. I sincerely hope he can find the same sort of comfort thru sports.

I've tried to ignore the sadness Father's day always brings me. I miss my daughter. She lives with her mother in MN (my exwife) whom won't let me even talk to her on the telephone. I even moved back to MN to try and establish some steady contact. Spent over two years there trying. Every attempt to talk to my daughter was denied. It was very frustrating and it was like adding salt to a wound. I just look forward to the day when my daughter turns 18 so she can make her own decisions regarding whether or not she wants to get to know me, her father. I can't even describe how I wait for that day, it will be very interesting to see what kind of trash mom has been saying about 'ol dad over the years.

I never have done any of that with Sebastian, missing parent bashing that is. Although he does know his mother is in prison, I certainly don't run around telling him all the horrible things she has done. Even knowing all the things this girl has done (she has 8 children now I think, she is responsible for exactly 0 of them), I would never disallow her contact with her son (apparently I'm the only one of the baby daddy's that do). It's just not fair, he deserves the chance to get to know his mother, all the wonderful things she is, and all the defects she carries with her. I certainly wish I had that opportunity with my daughter, so how could I even consider not giving that opportunity to seb's mom. Most people around me think I'm absolutely crazy to even let her talk to him, (she's done some really interesting bone brain things over her years living and growing up in the french quarter.)

Maybe one day you will come and read my blogs Martina. Please know I love you with all my heart, I always have and I always will. I miss you terribly and I so look forward to when we will be able to be together again. I still carry my very outdated picture of you in my wallet. It's time for me to get going, I don't allow myself the luxury of crying often, for some reason tonite, I think its going to be inevitable...

Until next time...